I have been severely unmotivated lately. It started with not feeling well, which caused me to miss a few yoga classes, and then it snowballed from there, and its been driving me nuts. I finally took a step in the right direction last night and made a new recipe (easy one skillet lasagna; its so easy and SO good) and bought art supplies over the weekend, so I am slowly (but very surely!) trying to motivate myself to do anything.
Last night, as I was scrolling through my blog feed and keeping my fingers crossed for a Dodger win, I came across a post regarding Bold Moves October. I am probably the last person on the planet to be aware of any sort of blog-related movement, but the post in question was about allowing yourself to say no so that you can open up space for more joy, and I was intrigued. Doing a little digging this morning, I came across the source, and now that I've read a lot of entries, I am totally into it. I love the idea of challenging oneself - I've always loved a challenge - and facing a fear or an anxiety and really noticing, what is the big deal? What is the worst that could happen?
Everyone has definitive regrets in their life. I do my best to not focus on the things I should have done, but rather the things I can control moving forward, but sometimes you get stuck in the downward spiral of "why didn't I study abroad? why didn't I reapply for that position?" And, even in the face of knowing you may regret NOT doing something, it can sometimes be difficult to find self-motivation to do it in the first place. This kind of daily challenge is exactly what I needed, when I needed it. (Again, I say - ask the Universe, and you shall recieve!)
I have made a few choices recently that I'd consider bold moves, but for starters here, I'll mention that I'm planning on going to my first belly dancing class Thursday night. I've never been to a belly dancing class, and thought about going last week, but totally chickened out. And for what? What is the worst that could happen? I make a fool out of myself? I do that on a regular basis - at least I'll be burning some calories while doing it!
I'll keep track of my progress and am interested to see what comes out of this crazy little experiment. After all, as the rules say, the first week will be harrowing and the last will be enlightening, and I could use a little enlightenment.